July 9

This is like a reality check. I have an explicit memory of today. I know that Bob was drifting in and out of sleep. He was not in any distress .I had wanted to ask, but didn't ,how it feels to be dying. Do you know that you are dying. Do you have any thoughts about it. Are you angry. Are you just waiting. what do you know???? But I didn't ask. I didn't want him to know that we were waiting for him to die. It takes a long time for your body to shut down. I went to sleep about 10:00. At 10:58 I heard a slight cough, nothing dramatic. Then Bob's life was over. I remember calling my Hospice nurse. She took over from there. I remember the undertaker coming and asking me to go in another room as they moved Bob to a gurney. I remember the American flag put on his coffin. That's when I knew it was over. I don't remember another thing after that. I still see that flag and the gurney. This is what I remember. 

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04.07 | 08:10

I read the last page first too. It’s a family curse.

22.05 | 08:38

so glad youre here mom!

29.08 | 13:45

Don't quite know how this got to me but it was on the top line of my computer (not in email) But I really enjoyed it. I truly admire you.

31.07 | 07:02

Leona, do you have a date or a booked flight that you come back ?

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