I am still house bound without a car. I have dog food and eggs, so Dixie and I are fine.  I am counting on my car being ready tomorrow and I can make a grocery run . I tried signing on for delivery at Walmart, but it became too confusing and I cancelled. During the worse of Covid , I shopped on line, picking up my groceries at a designated spot in the parking lot. I remember it being pretty easy to sign on. I don't know why this delivery system is such a challenge. I wanted the delivery to make it easier for Dixie. Her anxiety kicks in when I leave her alone, and although she is slightly better, this place is a maze for her and she finds herself in a closet , facing the wall,or under the dining room table, with a lot of obstacles. When I am ready to leave her alone, I will close her in the kitchen. It's small and has only one opening, which I will block. She'll still cry , howl and moan, but she won't hurt herself. I have never heard of a dog with such separation anxieties. I never second thought about leaving any of our dogs alone. I would just walk out of the door with a reminder to them that they were in charge and just take a message.

I just realized that I haven't unpacked. My  clothes are very neatly arranged in my destructed suitcase. I could have come without a suitcase because I have enough in my closet to dress me for any occasion. And shoes.I found a pair that I didn't know I owned. Dixie is taking advantage of this beautiful weather and demanding more frequent outings. I can't call them walks because that would imply that we actually go some place. She is happy to just walk across the street and in a few minutes, turn around and come home. I don't have my car back yet, so I have been happy to have an excuse not to go any where. My friends came over yesterday bearing Sushi and another friend came by today. I am so lucky to be where I am in my life right this minute. I don't spend a lot of time in the past, the future will be whatever comes my way ,so the present is where I want to live.  And ,if I don't smell the roses, I smell pine trees and sweet olive. Nothing wrong with that.

There is nothing like long time friendships. It was worth a long travel day, a back ache from leaning over to check if Dixie was still breathing and a plane seat that was broken and wouldn't recline, to come home to my friends. They all make me feel special, but they are the ones who are special. I didn't think that my hot water felt hot enough for my dish washer, so I went on YouTube and looked up how to raise the  temperature in my hot water tank. You can learn so much on YouTube. All I needed was two different screw drivers , which I had, and it was easy. I raised the temp from 120 to 130. Those 10 degrees made a big difference. I feel so accomplished when I do these little things by myself.I always wanted to learn how to repair a car. I had a vision of me repairing a VW bug. I wonder if high schools still offer adult ed. High schools use to have adult education evening classes, to learn different skills. I made a great butcher block work table one session and basic accounting at another. I tried Bridge , but It just didn't take.It's never too late, maybe I can try again.

Just a word from the unwise, do not cut open your suitcase when you think that you left the key to it's lock in PT and you are in Venice. Look one more time, some place that you had no idea that that was the place that you put the key, so you wouldn't forget. Like in the back of the case of your iPad, along with your Mah Jongg card. Now what to do with a destructed suitcase? It's more overwhelming to return this trip. So much traffic from Tampa. So many new developments that weren't there a year ago. So much construction. I often feel like a Rip van Winkle,waking up to events that are completely out of how things were a short time ago. My driver that met me at the airport stopped for gas at a Costco that was in a developed area that had cows in it when I left to go back to PT.Now it is a huge Costco and the ground churned up for acres for new construction. Build a Costco and they will come. I am also overwhelmed by the welcome I am getting being back in Venice. Family is where the heart is, here and in PT.

I am getting excited about my trip to Venice. I repacked ,found Dixie's sedatives, bought a few snacks for both of us and now I am in waiting mode. Our time to leave PT keeps getting earlier and earlier. Seatac, the airport that I leave from , cancelled 90 flights yesterday because of weather conditions. Today was fine, so fingers crossed. Security ,literally, was out the door, according to a news report.  . I don't know why Seattle has such an outstanding problem with their security. The last time that I flew with Dixie,people in the security line had enough time to run get a Starbuck coffee, get back in line and finish the coffee before they got to the front of the line. By the time I got to the front, my right shoulder was deadened from holding her in her sling pouch. This time, I know to to preorder a wheel chair. For me, not Dixie. I worked out the timing of when I give her her meds, starting at 9 AM on travel day. Her next dose will be at the airport at 9 PM. I hope I don't kill her.Dec. 1

Latest comments

01.12 | 09:15

Safe travels. See you soon. sally

04.07 | 08:10

I read the last page first too. It’s a family curse.

22.05 | 08:38

so glad youre here mom!

29.08 | 13:45

Don't quite know how this got to me but it was on the top line of my computer (not in email) But I really enjoyed it. I truly admire you.