Feb. 26

It's been 7 months since Bob died. Not to be melodramatic, but I had a chance to grieve while he was alive. Now,I grieve in subtle ways. Days will go by and I actually don't think about being alone. Then , I want to share something and I remember that I am alone. I still make a practice of visiting Bobs grave, usually on a Sunday.  I combine it with something pleasant., like a  ike ride or this week, I took my breakfast, a bagel and lox and a mug of coffee to Myaaka State Park , a favorite place of ours, and had my  breakfast sitting on a bench watching a very still alligator floating in the River. I do stand over the sink and eat sometimes. This is something you are not supposed to do, but in defense of doing this, I do look out over a beautiful scene of the golf course when I eat this way. There was a time in my 64 plus years of marriage that I had the thought that it would be so nice to be alone and eat anything that I wanted, when I wanted. Now that I am and can, I eat at the same  regular time, but not a meal like I woud have made if Bob were sharing this dinner with me. It takes almost a week to fill the dish washer enough to start it. I still get mailings addressed to Bob and I still get statements from my supplementary insurance for treatment Bob had months ago. I have stopped telling people to watch the curb when we are walking together. I still have a few things of Bob's around, like old prescription aviator style sun glasses, a special nail clipper that was on his key ring, a Jerry Garcia tie. I don't even know why, of all things, I still have these particular items. I'll probably look at them a few years from now and wonder the same thing. Bob had a peaceful death , in his home, family in and out of the house. I feel good about that.

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10.09 | 21:12

I thought you were going to fly back to Fl.Did you change your mind?You will have to come visit us at our new place that Debbie bought.Anxious to hear how your.

07.09 | 11:27

Shabbat Shalom Leona ! Have a great blessed and peaceful day. Bless you, Ginnie and Dan

31.07 | 16:57

I don't know how do that stuff!!!

21.07 | 14:44

Leona, we met the new Rabbi. He is very nice. He was asking us what classes we would like him to teach. When do you come home ?

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